Mike, You were my past but we were not typical "ex boyfriend/girlfriend" I always took your calls if I was alone at the time even though I knew I shouldn't just to hear your voice and so you could make me laugh. I knew I shouldn't talk to you because my feelings for you never went away even after you ripped up those concert tickets or crashed my car and I said I was done completely. Even after our history we still carried on a relationship though we didn't see each other and it was something I usually kept to myself. When I did talk to friends about you calling, people said "change your number" but I didn't want to because the truth was I liked hearing from you even though I had moved on. Our conversations were innocent...sort of, you always crossed the line and told me you would always come back to me if I let you but I wasn't willing to go back to the lifestyle I had with you..as much fun as it was :) I knew you were not going to change and I just wanted you to be happy... but as I talk to your mom and dad and people that hung out with you and they tell me how you still talked about me and told them how you still loved me that hurts so much. I just wish I could have said goodbye in person and told you I always loved you but we led different lives. When your mom called me and told me I was so much more devastated then I ever thought I would be but of course that's because I didn't realize how much I still cared til you were gone. Isn't that the way it always goes. Sometimes I feel that you are with me and sometimes I think that your speaking to me... then I wonder if I'm crazy and just thinking of you and pretending to talk to you in my head.... It's very confusing lol I'm just going to go ahead and say it is you. All I can say is I guess now you are with me all the time and in a better place then this world.. away from the things you needed to be away from. I hope that we will be together in another life because this one just wasn't for us. I love you so much... I'll always have you...just like a tattoo...